self-assimilated

Damn i am hopping mad. Am screaming
lying stone operated
breaking myself free again from myself constraint self
what controls my head from the iron grip of umbrella?
What that invisible, inexplicable link
Thank you ,you made me realise
Damn with tthe comprehension
How you belabour me everytime.
Am not a bad guy
I know you got tips to my head
But till now i wondered how?
You cant be with me til sanity`s end
Realisation is catching up us on again
Such a pathetic creep i am
Still remembering how someone ripped my real identity
My existence
My soul needs some bash, some culture which i can perceive
Remnants bugs me now catatonic
I got affected every time from my own self-pity shits
How i was basking into my own purgatory of sadness and frustration
Stalking love-hate-love slopes i can see
I can see the invisible cord.