self-assimilated

Damn i am hopping mad. Am screaming
lying stone operated
breaking myself free again from myself constraint self
what controls my head from the iron grip of umbrella?
What that invisible, inexplicable link
Thank you ,you made me realise
Damn with tthe comprehension
How you belabour me everytime.
Am not a bad guy
I know you got tips to my head
But till now i wondered how?
You cant be with me til sanity`s end
Realisation is catching up us on again
Such a pathetic creep i am
Still remembering how someone ripped my real identity
My existence
My soul needs some bash, some culture which i can perceive
Remnants bugs me now catatonic
I got affected every time from my own self-pity shits
How i was basking into my own purgatory of sadness and frustration
Stalking love-hate-love slopes i can see
I can see the invisible cord.

i refuse to live

as i close my eyes and soak my pain without a elicit

a new of sanguine seed of paronia creeps in

like an anointing blister its escalating

a life that seems incurable disease to me now

each day combating with the melancholy

each fucking second looking at my rotten self

i stink myself

an aversion to this living grave

my own built denial sanatorium

my inner maggots has ripped me off now

i hew my organs and i can read the cryptic message

how confusing those meaning are nailed

i see with myself

all i can see is liver, kidney blood

Where the fuck are emotions

no more

i refuse to stand i refuse to fight i refuse to live

the whole existence of me, a disrespect to the myself

i am broken to pieces by the stones of you hatred

all life i live but hate consumed me at the end.

this malady is incurable

manipulated in a way that is more of a fucking snap

i was dazzled by the star of you once ..but no more

a medley crafted in such a soothing way ..but no more

rest now is a wretched extant of mine.

im shredding self

Let's leave no words unspoken and save regrets for the broken. will you even look back when you'll think of me? All i want is a place to call my own, to mend the hears of everyone who feels alone. <3