Dissonance with self

I refrained my inner demons for so long, captivated,and the uproar be-cold.
Ideas,Ideologies are of my owns evolutionary distinct,lost a long time ago.
Failed,sickened,dampened.
Each day fractured, each night lost in urbane transmission.
Reached a stage of rubicon,where only silence of breath is atmost elegance.
Existence void of hope.
Existence void of a referral.
Vapid life,sucking out the spermatozoa.
Denial,deformed,demotivated and delusional.
My opinions mocks to my demons.
Carefully nourished thoughts I tried to imbue,so sly,so astute.
Bitter end awaits, a bitter life passed.
Botched out.........