addicted to heavy metal beats
.Still some riffs keeping on stricking in my ear chrome dome..
im wondering where the fuck is
my heart..Or i dont have on..I touched my chest.That cant be one..From where such weird feeling about someone sprout..Why we miss some one after dark..
my head is frozen on a daily
basis
and my brain's not responding
im fucking tripping
but its not that bad i had worst
where you were literally stuck in
your office and home.Ostracised from mortal world..Every day feed on burger..Getting less time for sleeping..
looking outside with big eyes
thinking is this a lie
is the sunrays covering the swing
and slide ?
so im complaining for nothing
but shit its a turn off
..Ah i dunno know what to write..Who panned my writing skills,..Why even i feel i m stumped for words..Haha i dunno why i feel like singing words by boyzone..And words is all i have to take your heart away..I cant beleive i typed all this on my phone.
I have mountain of work to do professionally,personally,spiritually,creatively and technically and many other-ally. But I am procrastinating on all of them or most of them.So, I end up blogging instead.Slowly nudging my ducks in a row :p
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
december
A bone chilling gush of winter cold
by the window perch i can stand and i can see my heart melt
i want never to be alone, i want to hear my whisper
and the unsaid words.
i am sleeping somewhere in the sweet thought of you
So silent like a hypnotic shades of nights color
reaching to the virgin abodes of my heart
your thoughts swarms through the window of my heart
you make my world beautiful like a drop of ocean till infinity
your are my life from the fields of heart
you voice is a music to my soul
your a sweetest religion, which i believe in
i stand outside to reach to you
and why cant you stretch and carve me in
discover the inside god of love ,reach for me
I am still waiting in the banks of your river
Your picture and time spend questioning my head
I am just lost when you talk
every lines u spoke thawed my heart
badly smitten by your sweet aura of mystery that
air u pollutes with your words
linger in my startled sky
in the amidst of love
i lost myself
by the window perch i can stand and i can see my heart melt
i want never to be alone, i want to hear my whisper
and the unsaid words.
i am sleeping somewhere in the sweet thought of you
So silent like a hypnotic shades of nights color
reaching to the virgin abodes of my heart
your thoughts swarms through the window of my heart
you make my world beautiful like a drop of ocean till infinity
your are my life from the fields of heart
you voice is a music to my soul
your a sweetest religion, which i believe in
i stand outside to reach to you
and why cant you stretch and carve me in
discover the inside god of love ,reach for me
I am still waiting in the banks of your river
Your picture and time spend questioning my head
I am just lost when you talk
every lines u spoke thawed my heart
badly smitten by your sweet aura of mystery that
air u pollutes with your words
linger in my startled sky
in the amidst of love
i lost myself
Monday, March 21, 2011
You know you are a Metal head if
1. ...you insist on calling puppet
masters masters of puppets.
2. ...you don't own any non-band
shirts.
3. ...when faced with any type of
decision, you always pick the choice
that is the most "metal."
4. ...you randomly and
uncontrollably do high-pitched
screams and death growls.
5. ...you can spend an entire week
listening to every metal song you
own back to back without repeats.
6. ...you hate some subgenre of
metal.
7. ...you are aware metal has
subgenres.
8. ...you can play air guitar and get
all the notes right.
9. ....you know that after "Nothing
Else Matters", nothing Metallica put
out actually did.
10. ....you can hum "Master Of
Puppets" in time.
11. ....you have battle scars from
concerts.
12. ....you buy a nine track CD that
lasts 2 and a half hours.
13. ....you decide to get married and
go to Wacken for your honeymoon.
14. .....you answer "err...rock" when
someone asks you what music you
listen to cuz they wouldn't know
what metal is anyways.
15. ....when you increase the volume
on your mp3 player when someone
turns on the radio.
16. ....when people ask you your
favorite band you go like" you
wouldn't know if I told you ".
17. ....when mainstream music
makes you angry and you need
metal to relax.
18. ....when you can't stop a song in
the middle because it would be
profane to interrupt such opus.
19. ....when you slowly start learning
Scandinavian or German just by
listening to music.
20. ....you know the name of the
band members and the studio
where they record their albums and
the producer. Ask any non-metal fan
this s**t and see if they know it.
21. ....when you can't pronounce
90% of the bands you listen to.
22. ....when you go to a music store
and you think it's an absolute
travesty that Nickelback is right next
to Nile.
23. ....you have no idea what any of
the lyrics to some of your favorite
bands are actually saying.
24. ....even though you don't know
the language, you try to sing along
anyway, making "words" that are at
least close to the sounds you're
hearing, but probably make you
sound like a complete idiot if you're
were around a native speaker.
25. ....when you start singing, you
look pissed off and start using your
hands rapidly while listening to the
song.
26. ....when you go to sleep every
night listening to stuff that could
wake the dead.
27. ....when your friends are talking
to you but you just pretend to listen
and nod your head while listening to
the CD that's playing on your stereo
instead of them.
28. ....you hear rap, you have to
leave the vicinity, from fear of dying
from high blood pressure.
29. ....you see a bright sunny day
and get depressed, and then see a
cloudy gloomy day and are as
happy as can be.
30. ....you turn down a dinner and
movie with a hot mainstream girl
because you're waiting for a torrent
to finish downloading.
31. ....you can't help but judge
people based on their music tastes.
Come on, I'm not the only one that
hears people talking about Nirvana or
Korn and thinks "haha, what a bunch
of assholes."
32. ....you consider the accordion,
flute, bagpipes, violin, and cellos to
be brutal instruments.
33. ....the only gods you believe in
are the Norse gods.
34. ....someone looks at your
completely full 120gb ipod and the
only band they've ever heard of on it
is Metallica.
35. ....when you postpone your
marriage day to go to a metal
concert.
36. ....when viking drinking horns
substitute bottles and mugs.
37. ....when you want to learn
German just because of Blind
Guardian.
38. ....when your girlfriend threatens
to leave you because she does not
like the fact that you want a beard
just like Johan Hegg or Marco Hietala.
39. ....you go to a music store and
they dont have one damn band you
are looking for!
40. ....you go on a date and the only
thing close to make-out music you
have in your car is Finntroll or
Alestorm.
41. ....when people always ask you
"whats that on your T-shirt?" and
you reply "A band."
42. ....when everytime you hear the
word "time" you start daydreaming
about Wintersun's upcoming
release.
43. ....you have an imaginary friend
named Eddie.
44. ....you complain about the fact
that you don't have enough money
to afford chainmail and a sword.
45. ....when the first German city
you think of is Wacken.
46. ....your mothers head explodes
when she turns on your car stereo.
47. ....you know exactly which
countries come under Scandinavia.
48. ...when you romantically
compare your girlfriend to your
favorite metal album.
49. ...everytime you hear a song
that isn't metal, all you can think
about is how much better a metal
version of it would be.
50. ....when nobody wants to get
you Christmas presents because all
the cds you want have to be
imported from the farthest reaches
of the globe.
i really dont agree with no 9
though...
masters masters of puppets.
2. ...you don't own any non-band
shirts.
3. ...when faced with any type of
decision, you always pick the choice
that is the most "metal."
4. ...you randomly and
uncontrollably do high-pitched
screams and death growls.
5. ...you can spend an entire week
listening to every metal song you
own back to back without repeats.
6. ...you hate some subgenre of
metal.
7. ...you are aware metal has
subgenres.
8. ...you can play air guitar and get
all the notes right.
9. ....you know that after "Nothing
Else Matters", nothing Metallica put
out actually did.
10. ....you can hum "Master Of
Puppets" in time.
11. ....you have battle scars from
concerts.
12. ....you buy a nine track CD that
lasts 2 and a half hours.
13. ....you decide to get married and
go to Wacken for your honeymoon.
14. .....you answer "err...rock" when
someone asks you what music you
listen to cuz they wouldn't know
what metal is anyways.
15. ....when you increase the volume
on your mp3 player when someone
turns on the radio.
16. ....when people ask you your
favorite band you go like" you
wouldn't know if I told you ".
17. ....when mainstream music
makes you angry and you need
metal to relax.
18. ....when you can't stop a song in
the middle because it would be
profane to interrupt such opus.
19. ....when you slowly start learning
Scandinavian or German just by
listening to music.
20. ....you know the name of the
band members and the studio
where they record their albums and
the producer. Ask any non-metal fan
this s**t and see if they know it.
21. ....when you can't pronounce
90% of the bands you listen to.
22. ....when you go to a music store
and you think it's an absolute
travesty that Nickelback is right next
to Nile.
23. ....you have no idea what any of
the lyrics to some of your favorite
bands are actually saying.
24. ....even though you don't know
the language, you try to sing along
anyway, making "words" that are at
least close to the sounds you're
hearing, but probably make you
sound like a complete idiot if you're
were around a native speaker.
25. ....when you start singing, you
look pissed off and start using your
hands rapidly while listening to the
song.
26. ....when you go to sleep every
night listening to stuff that could
wake the dead.
27. ....when your friends are talking
to you but you just pretend to listen
and nod your head while listening to
the CD that's playing on your stereo
instead of them.
28. ....you hear rap, you have to
leave the vicinity, from fear of dying
from high blood pressure.
29. ....you see a bright sunny day
and get depressed, and then see a
cloudy gloomy day and are as
happy as can be.
30. ....you turn down a dinner and
movie with a hot mainstream girl
because you're waiting for a torrent
to finish downloading.
31. ....you can't help but judge
people based on their music tastes.
Come on, I'm not the only one that
hears people talking about Nirvana or
Korn and thinks "haha, what a bunch
of assholes."
32. ....you consider the accordion,
flute, bagpipes, violin, and cellos to
be brutal instruments.
33. ....the only gods you believe in
are the Norse gods.
34. ....someone looks at your
completely full 120gb ipod and the
only band they've ever heard of on it
is Metallica.
35. ....when you postpone your
marriage day to go to a metal
concert.
36. ....when viking drinking horns
substitute bottles and mugs.
37. ....when you want to learn
German just because of Blind
Guardian.
38. ....when your girlfriend threatens
to leave you because she does not
like the fact that you want a beard
just like Johan Hegg or Marco Hietala.
39. ....you go to a music store and
they dont have one damn band you
are looking for!
40. ....you go on a date and the only
thing close to make-out music you
have in your car is Finntroll or
Alestorm.
41. ....when people always ask you
"whats that on your T-shirt?" and
you reply "A band."
42. ....when everytime you hear the
word "time" you start daydreaming
about Wintersun's upcoming
release.
43. ....you have an imaginary friend
named Eddie.
44. ....you complain about the fact
that you don't have enough money
to afford chainmail and a sword.
45. ....when the first German city
you think of is Wacken.
46. ....your mothers head explodes
when she turns on your car stereo.
47. ....you know exactly which
countries come under Scandinavia.
48. ...when you romantically
compare your girlfriend to your
favorite metal album.
49. ...everytime you hear a song
that isn't metal, all you can think
about is how much better a metal
version of it would be.
50. ....when nobody wants to get
you Christmas presents because all
the cds you want have to be
imported from the farthest reaches
of the globe.
i really dont agree with no 9
though...
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
;-)
You are now entering the maze that inhabits my weird head. im opinionated. im sensitive. I have a phobia of heartbeats. I love creative pl because they view the world differently from the soul-less. I love Neurosis in dysfunctional, suicide-lite, haters who gets hate. I love eccentricity. I love quirky. Take what you read here with a grain of salt ;-) Open the big box and you just might find a little box, and so on and so on. Somedays im sociable, other days, totally reclusive. I am more complex than I want to be...i dont know why im so
Friday, March 4, 2011
sublime
ok now lets put the past aside
thought about it while i was sliding near the intersection
looked over the horizon and heard a dame picture
activated my senses
you told me you read me one time
and wondered what occurred during the times we weren’t together
well i got affected by countless pain and too much hurting
it turned my mind into a lifeless zombie with a out-of-this-world mentality
which added with the maniac attack that i received way back
plus the excess level of my inner scenes of torture.. i stress myself to excel at
could give me a heart attack but i keep my body intact thought chronic & mediation
i wont elaborate on my many statements
i wondered if you wanted to be heard or just wanted me to spill the beans
on my visions and life meanings for no reasons
i wondered wrong since the beginning
lets exit the premise and exercise mental anguish and loathe alone
thought about it while i was sliding near the intersection
looked over the horizon and heard a dame picture
activated my senses
you told me you read me one time
and wondered what occurred during the times we weren’t together
well i got affected by countless pain and too much hurting
it turned my mind into a lifeless zombie with a out-of-this-world mentality
which added with the maniac attack that i received way back
plus the excess level of my inner scenes of torture.. i stress myself to excel at
could give me a heart attack but i keep my body intact thought chronic & mediation
i wont elaborate on my many statements
i wondered if you wanted to be heard or just wanted me to spill the beans
on my visions and life meanings for no reasons
i wondered wrong since the beginning
lets exit the premise and exercise mental anguish and loathe alone
Existentialism - living hell - condemned to be free..still im screaming ur name
how many times have i been labelled a radical
do i have to cut my skin to see me bleed ?
or simply confess my instincts
cant do it to here
more so if im morbid progeny so dont test this jester
im too dolt to be in danger
to abnormal to plunge into a formal tutorial..i missed a lot in my paltry to be formal with ppl
i should try to let go of me as soon as possible
im a burning handle
if i was an angel u could hav accepted me
sadly the demon's of hell called on me
they sat me down underground
branded me with the mark known only as the eye of mysticism
it appears on my hand whenever i call upon mystic creatures
or a communication with the damnation as to be initiated
dont be alarmed ..im just a radical ..
im fucking born of filth
do i have to cut my skin to see me bleed ?
or simply confess my instincts
cant do it to here
more so if im morbid progeny so dont test this jester
im too dolt to be in danger
to abnormal to plunge into a formal tutorial..i missed a lot in my paltry to be formal with ppl
i should try to let go of me as soon as possible
im a burning handle
if i was an angel u could hav accepted me
sadly the demon's of hell called on me
they sat me down underground
branded me with the mark known only as the eye of mysticism
it appears on my hand whenever i call upon mystic creatures
or a communication with the damnation as to be initiated
dont be alarmed ..im just a radical ..
im fucking born of filth
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
ORS oral rehydration salts-Citrate I.P
Q-is roop on hiatus?
bloody i was food poisoned i cant come.i am so weak right now.puked like hell.few more could have broke rib cage.drank ORS a lot ..it says restores body fluids and electrolytes lost due to dehydration. i need a lot more to restore than my fluids..maybe my h---T
who cured me. destiny??
alone sleeping away my medicines. a house which is not my home.
Sick and twisted in a world out of mine..i need to save myself from myself.
i don’t wanna hear my own scream.i wanna nullify frm bloody
scream..dark past lies cold..but i have to be strong.
my inner self made me shiver. Made me wonder if this was another trick
from one of your friend's or an angry click
claiming my head for something sick i probably did
but it was you , the friend i since forgotten existed
no i was just trying to forget my mistakes
and start fresh for the summer of 2010
but you came back all of a sudden
you want to see me ? but u wanna see me
i kept wondering if i was dreaming or in heaven
but my horoscope was right , i would see someone tonight
but YOU! i never dreamt about this in all my sleepless nights
is this an illusion ? is the love of my life returning home ?
am i finally going to be able to let go and move to a positif zone?
i wish you tell me something that makes me happy
i couldnt take another blow to my sanitiy
but whatever happens
ill still always .............
who cured me. destiny??
alone sleeping away my medicines. a house which is not my home.
Sick and twisted in a world out of mine..i need to save myself from myself.
i don’t wanna hear my own scream.i wanna nullify frm bloody
scream..dark past lies cold..but i have to be strong.
my inner self made me shiver. Made me wonder if this was another trick
from one of your friend's or an angry click
claiming my head for something sick i probably did
but it was you , the friend i since forgotten existed
no i was just trying to forget my mistakes
and start fresh for the summer of 2010
but you came back all of a sudden
you want to see me ? but u wanna see me
i kept wondering if i was dreaming or in heaven
but my horoscope was right , i would see someone tonight
but YOU! i never dreamt about this in all my sleepless nights
is this an illusion ? is the love of my life returning home ?
am i finally going to be able to let go and move to a positif zone?
i wish you tell me something that makes me happy
i couldnt take another blow to my sanitiy
but whatever happens
ill still always .............
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