Self involved user

My heart is too dark to care now. My wishes and desires were charred a long time ago. Left with a cremated soul. All of my lies have formed a second skin. The things I only cared; i only wished is to be your friend. I am a morbid product of all the streamline aversion. Sinister urges gushes inside me, all because of me. i was a fool. Do you even care? Please claw me away from you now. My life is condemned and i don’t want you to manipulate what’s inside me. I want to sum up all the things you used to bracket me as a sobriquet radical. All the transformation is creeping and I am falling more close to that status quo of yours. You didn’t tell me what did i do? Each thought are decaying me from inside. Like a pulse of a maggot. My thoughts are more of a fragmented chaos now.. My head is defiled by those reminiscences. I still miss your face. Some part of me is still somewhere in you. That world of your dead memories, where my mind venture writhe me . I try hard to get rid of it but it’s too tangible to draw myself back. I have nothing to say now. Am a left over desolate creature and i can’t stand on my ground. I am locked in a nightmare now and the key is you.The air i breathe reminds me of you. Air i breathe seems like a cage now. All i got now is hatred. i stripped down my life to you but you spit it away. Each fragment seems to culminate now to imbue more loathe to this existence. Please come back and love me. I want to tear away each part of my goddamn body now . Else you execute me fucker. I don`t want to reshape myself. You extorted me with a sweet smile. So subtle, so succulent. That’s it I want to draw a line now. I can feel the loathe creeping in. Come smear me whole with you bitter words. But you smiled when you gifted me grief. Give me any repaired reason to live. What’s done is done. You can’t take me away from me anymore. I rather die than to consume your memories like fire.