Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Inner-hood


I am left with no money. How can I fancy any gin? Wondering within how will I slake the thirst of my inner demon, as the duskiness will slowly engulf every specks of light bit by bit; more horribleness will overpower me. The darkness will descend, and drag me out of sanity, without any morality. I have to gather penny by penny to prevent the inner demon to manifest to this humanly world ruthlessly. 
This demon in me, have to be dealt with kindness, as I slake down self to intoxication. My mind needs to killed, thoughts needs to be annihilated, before it reports to her and torn me apart. I have to hold my identity, which I have been hiding for so long to this society.
Cheap booze, may work, I will be full of logic, as I surrender myself to the real me, which I have nurtured for so long. Intoxication, is prime resort. Food, I don’t care, I will survive, on my own vomit.
Without money, I feel so vulnerable, exposed to the reality, like a living human, skinned.
I gulp, with a pinch of salt, and drift to the eternity, a safe haven for my inner lord. Now I am proud, as I envelope my shame with my naked body. The femininity in me had always yelped, combated for an identity. My inner demon my femininity - my real existence, my manhood.

-Roop

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