Self involved user

I have witnessed so many times, weary times, in combat between inner demons and angles. A battle, where these two arch enemies had been thirsty to slake each other’s blood, but most of all these are all cold blooded one, not a mere scar or a drop of blood, yet it’s been pretty gruesome. I have found myself standing on the rubicon, where I have to play the referee, hands tied, mouth gagged, only ears and ears are the sense to visualize the scene. The cryptic moves in which one is hewing with tooth and nail the other one. I know I have the valor to marshal up and set this war a halt, but what is holding me back, what is impeding me. Why infort of my eyes, this war is raging, why after having eyes , I am feeling so blind folded.Sigh! Unit by unit I am decaying deep within, these rotten flesh, these dried up blood and the fetidness in the air.