random 1

i am feeling squeamish after all these. consuming two lozenge of paracetamol and lying all dormant on bed is making me feel less like a human.sleeping like a log for the whole day minus the snores.i hate to fall sick but being a human i am exempted from having a second option. i had cut my diet from like last one month. i am eating very less. like half belly full.my weight have dwindle a lot in this one month. i dunno why am doing all these to myself. anyway i have to reconstruct with what am lagging behind . sometime i feel someone have put me in a reshuffle mode and i am being played without anyone`s concern. somewhere my life is like a solo, played just to please for a moment and being forgotten after while.many random feeling are now forming a figure of some monster shape and dancing inside me and teasing me. i dunno why am missing you more than yesterday.i dunno how to pen such thoughts. i dunno wanna sabotage the build up pally rapport. maybe am too coward with all these.i dunno how to court you when you are near. i wanna stay with you darling but my other half don`t want to me to dare me with such tepid feelings.