diagonally parked

As the light from my bulb is slowly going numb, each night it seems i have wasted one more days. i dnt know what am doing with life.so pissed .so mad at myself. Nocturnal hours haunts me now. each thoughts seems to leaks and went fading.pulled down ,am drowning in my own agony, my cryptic self won’t let me live now . Nobody is here. i try not to fear but my-self haunts me..take whatever you want from me but please give me a piece of mind. Failure has made me a creator now .more of a desecrator. Show me a sign, show me a path .i need a light to feel.where are my guiding angel. Seems they eloped rather than helping me combating with this hellish mental dome of mine. some kind of fright , this inner monster out of head womb is not letting me to revert to normalcy.each day i see my stinking self. What am i become. such a pathetic malady.i live with monsters but they never pay rent , my good thoughts are biding me a farewell. sending me into the oblivion of psychosis. my head is pierced from spears dripped in toxins by my own bitter thoughts..so antidotes wont save my soul , only burn more holes