psyched out

psyched out..really its not like that i don’t like to write..but im finding my job very gruelling and now they asked me come at 7 am.. i have to work a 8 hour shift.how can i concentrate on working and socializing when all i feel like doing is...crying?..you say what to do ? private sanctuary violated by absence from my postings..maybe if i practiced abstinence.i would have time to make sence ? no no no nodont blush..if i keep on running like this at such any early age my body will decay soon and will be buried in my own esoterism..am i too weird for myself ? all work and no play..gosh am i a slave working like 6 days a week..please condone me if i don’t show any social involvement..gosh i miss my collage days now..all the fun with friends..life please stop using me like a municipal garbage bin.. damn im bored..bye need to shut my daily grouse door !!! Bam!!