silent scream..my own recipe of hatred towards myself..I have moved so far..Still I’m behind..My evolution is still a slow process..I can’t read my alphabets aloud..My eyes aches my ear drums bleeds..Feels like soaking them in your blood..I want to move..I want to ride in a highway..I want to feel the dusty roads..I want to see a white day. I want to live.Cant read the cryptic signs of humans..Still i want to run..Im still unknown to me..A apathetic existence..A evolution from disgrace..I feel guilty..I return to my now dust..I really feel outcast...For the sins i didn’t commit..I have become my own lie..I dont preach insanity to you..It’s simple me. The endless fornicating with life i endured while i missed myself into countless hours.im a narcissist and tragically flawed i wish i was above my own dark emotions.but sadly i cant even comprehend my own intentions..
i used to cry alot when i started this blog... slowly lost my respect in the process of finding myself.my evolution is still a very slow process .a depth within me which is beyond to gauge..a pattern of me so lucid still so complex.im lost in my own latitudes ..i still find my life beyond my trajectories ..my fragile self is too hard for you to neglect..i can’t see how others counted on me..my existence is not been schooled by the people around me..i learned myself ..kind of impossible to drink water from my life banks..Coz i don’t have any.im a creek of dark napalm always ready to get charred ..im impossible to scramble ..May be causes are many but the pain is perpetual..still i press my lips with pain when i try to revise myself..i don’t wanna read myself..my chapters are burned by thermo oxidative shits..And the left over part of me is too cryptic to apprehend..My life is a fast lane now..Feels like I’m standing on a moving wheel..But you can always find me..Always.. Exposed in my brokenness .always smiling and telling the world about my pain...Bearing my dark soul to this world..Till my whole existence descends...but i won’t whim if u give me a empty stare too..i will still be unknown to many .
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