back to general vicinity

All the while im been huming too many words suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck!!!my body feels the anomaly of not gettin enough sleep..to much okay to stay awake closed my eyes while listening to skid row..i should sleep now.. i have job when the sun will be shining..but im stuck and awake..am i vigil idiot??/ my mind isnt active since last few days.its more like a a desperate attempt at normalize.meaning that i want to be a normal humain being..Right now what i need is some warm embrace..my life is like a sad poem now.. not having a significance.but its on a whole other level..i cant believe how i switched from happy to sad and lonely tale..its ok im just venting my brain a little..i want to write my heart out but it feels like my capabilities are been panned hard by some invisible power..i will not write about us anymore.. .i try to make you invade my mind its like space invaders..but hey don’t compare it to whatever its painful. i had enough of this stupidity..i have learned to live .. i live again but now I’m more like a nobody in the general term. i decided to change my rhyming sombre platform now.if i want to move forward i have to reform.. ok back to being normal without being formal. my mind is once again independent.i really want to make good writng for people to understand that im sane..but with all this negativity how can you expect meto reach eternity.. its not a question its an fucking affirmation.. i am one of those .i chose to be socially awkward while being constantly moving forward.. i can get away to some place thats far from my abnormal pase..its ok im not blessed.. how weird can you classify me ? oh leave that now..i swear on my existence boo i wont type a goodbye again.